-did i mention-

the dream of us
the one in "my old house"
the one with U and me
on the bed
i dont know before
i dont know after
all i know is
...

it was hot
we were irresistable

and what does it bode for us
or is it just a Freudian slip of mind
the venue is impossible anyway
but yet it was very visual i could feel you sweat


the night i stayed out with ting outside ESTE
felt so useless
felt so beaten
that its always the people you care
fall into a vicious cycle
and KNOWINGLY not wanting to get out of it
its a stupid scenario
and a stupid choice
its not just plain lazy
its just...too easy to not think about it?

as for U
i dont blame U
cause i can understand
do i can i?
that i dont mind
and its a promise
which u may not remember
or not want me to fulfil
but i take it as my word
and i prithee the day cometh


am i growing skeptical of everything
'cause there's this "dont be greedy" and must be someone generous spirirt
around CNY
but why is it
people all buying 4D and praying numbers drop from nowhere
shaking hands and exchanging words of well wishes
only when the draw comes out a few people will win the money...

or do you imagine someone buys 4D Toto etc and says :i wish my friend wins and not me..

blah blah..the hypocritical scenario



i fear too k
i fear im chasing something wrong
despite every reason for doing so being so damn correct