-silver-

is the monetary benefit really worth my slogging? i wouldnt know. but it would be nice to see better results. and a healthier bank account. though i cant get gold this year. i can sill try next year. $200.

11.25 run 2.4km
9 pull ups
9.5 sec shuttle run
41 slowly done sit ups
243cm standing board jump. too bad they only gave til the max number they see. i went over the line grr..

$100 incentive. and a whacked knee. and a strained calf. i hope the injury isnt permanent. but two days on it still feels runny..

new achievements... nobody to congratulate me.. nobody to even talk to me. i loiter at orchard alone. treat myself to 2 cds. wander and look at others happily in pairs. and began to rain.. and feel the aching in the knee.

win some lose some? cant i even be happy for one day? in fact winning the $100 even got me more teasing from friends. even if they dont mean it. i still feel like a dork. everything i do is used against me. sue me for trying hard to improve myself then.

i worked for so much stuff. dont i deserve the fruits of my labour?