-yawn. just. l-o-n-e-l-y-

微笑再美再甜不是你的都不特别

眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰又是晴天

wadamiblabberingabout

my dreams have meanings

my visions have endings

nobody seems to care

cause i dreamt i saw U

lost

crying

nobody to turn to

why is it i always see u in these dreams

waking me up scared

and sometimes..coming true..in different ways

will u listen if i warned u now

or turn away and dismiss them

and sulk at my words?

cause i still hope u find REAL appiness

not fleeting

passing

feelings

that just happen to have someone pop up

real friends are distancing

be it their partners

or other friends

work

or any other commitment

i long for that touch

that lost feeling

my only friend now

is the silence of the night

the loneliness of the crowd

i hide

by sleeping

by being in a daze

not fitting into the crowd(s)

but still finding time

losing sleep

being there for people

whom may not even feel that i exist

or concerned about what i am going into

or going through

i got to stop yakking

and start doing

yet..

is it because im lazy that

i want to take my time

in certain things?

im sorry

to all those expectations

i just know

despite it being urgent + important

i...

just feeling up and down.

ask me another day...