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yaaawwwwn.. been long since last online.. sheesh. eventful days have passed but not all have been as memorable as it promised to be..

10/5 got the worst diarrhoea ever.. no idea why.. but came after the fever of 3days.. even visiting the Medical Officer was a chore. i think the long wait cured my diarrhoea anyway, not his prescription...

this bloody sergeant of mine.. younger than all of us.. n yet so smug with his perfectionistic views.. if only we can get our hands on him outside.. taste blood..

12/5 Grenade Assault Course n Distance Accuracy Course test.. ( GAC n DAC) lol.. was fun. The test grenades were flying everywhere looking at the others throw.. Benjamin even lobbed it across to the other lane.. "cross-fire" ..i even saw someone throw it straight at the Sergeant standing there not paying attention.. lucky he ducked in time.. haha. well we crawled around on the field weted by the drizzles.. a rarity in tekong.. Poor Lieutenant Jonathan.. head smacked by a rifle butt as the thrower swung it behind him when he dived for cover..

12/5 Woke up at 0430 for Range practice.. looking at those who simply cant follow instructions make me ponder: is it really necessary for them to be in national service? heck.. they might kill their own men b4 meeting the enenmy.. GULP. my first shoots was good, even at night. instinct? well i guess somethings u dont have to take it so seriously n still do well.. Lieutenant Khairil said my zeroing practice was good n if i can maintain i would be top shooter for the company. well at least thats what i hope to anyway.
The "ELITE" detail was the joke of many, as the problematic people were all assigned to that special detail to pay extra attention to. i can only imagine the stress the instructors had trying to ensure no casualties there. Dumbass Ming Zhi even carried live rounds n the frifle mags back to our rest area... i would have jumped on him straight if he even went close to playing with his rifle then.. why cant some people see the importance of such details... cant be bothered?

didnt know the 2 other stooges in our platoon were called 2B.. well i think it should be 3B ..( bodohs)

14/5 Barf. yet another disappointment. yes no marksman for me. juz a pass. luck wasnt with me this time as i trusted my instincts..oh well. company has only 2 marksman. n they get a day off..

18/5 finally back to my fittest self.. IPPT! heck my pull ups still fail.. but i never ran a 2.4km with such joy.. it was stressfree.. perhaps due to me having mc for quite a while n not having any runs.. im beginning to like runs? aha.. but we had such a high morale after the entire test.. well i found out afterwards i still failed by 2 seconds. WARRGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!

oh well. Arsenal Vs Man Yoo tonight. FA cup final. pray...

-short break- pointless

today out.tml in. what a system. yes booking in n out. damn dumb. but looking at the confined guys.. quite sad. wonder what they do in camp alone. or with each other. hmm.

well.. to recap.. the guys at camp told me that i eat quite fast but very gracefully. im like "duh?"
does it sound like im sissy? well.. i've never been called graceful... always been an insensitive bore to some? always been a loud n unkempt n un-reserved guy i guess..

well. i shant call names here as im still in camp.. but the Feminine Guy n the Guy with the unlimited sprays.. i think they are gay.. especially when they always arrange to go shower together.. im like.. heard them talking politics n global issues there.. but.. why only the two of them? anyway.. the way they talk.. *shivers*

did i mention that the Feminine Guy likes to squeeze his "boobs" ? ( n yes he shows us..) the rest of us were like.. urgh. please. oh ya.. he is also touchy feely too.. likes to squeeze in between people.. perhaps its just me that cant stand skin contact when people brush against my arm.. but hey.. who "burrows" into other people side by side.. what is he.. deprived?

two book outs so far.. n everytime i see this other guy from my platoon being "escorted" by a girl to go home.. hey.. mind u.. this guy's got boobs n more folds than abstract origami. n yet he has the luxury of a girlfriend to "fetch" him home after every bookout. m i envious or jealous.? i guess im just feeling inferior that someone who is physically less attractive than me (not that im a suave smooth operator...) has the lovely feeling of being in love n always there. it should have happened to me. but it was not meant to be at the eleventh hour.

always had the wish that the best test of a relationship is when the guy is in the army while the girl waits on. but no i will never have this test again.

well.. he is fortunate. n im sure its got nothing to do with looks or riches does it? i have neither. n i know that real love is not about all that too. i guess its really about the trials n tribulations one goes thru.n about personality. hm.. means i got a flawed personality? all this analysis is just degrading myself further. m i sad? well at least i dun show it anymore. n yes i still dare to dream. im amazed too. if i cant be really happy, i feel good trying to make others happy. even if i brings out the lamest in me.

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在哪里。

我静静忍住痛。把你忘记。