-sapped by 40 degrees, dreams for a delightful unknown (will it all come to me)-

another week of fever. why me? being so weak irks me.

but it brought a call to me. im glad. perhaps the animosity was broken. but it is always like this.
i could have long done it. cuz i m always wary of the reaction i may bring about. will it be another cause for regret. i dunno.

still hope you will call. or get to call. cuz something's gotta tell.

tuesday night was dreaming of rushing through the shops and stalls to find rock candy and jellies to give you. even end up in a fight with the old man. but the rush to find it was so real. it shows how much it mattered to me. but it didnt last long enough to see me give it to u...

then there was this another when we somehow were in my primary school, all my primary schoolmates were there. and u were somewhat lost . i dunno why without a regard for what u may feel or others might think i just grabbed you and hugged u tight. and it feels just like before. and u didnt resist. u couldnt. almost didnt want to. perhaps in your head u wanted but ur heart stopped you.

-i realised that we had a bond, then when strained just shows me how much it meant to be. while it has been months i have almost given up i realised that i could try again. yes i still feel it is possible. and i want it to happen.the whole past will be forgiven and forgotten. allow me to take you in my arms again. the past shortcomings will not be around again-

for i live my own life now