-beaten.beat-

thursday 1/9
Macritchie Cross Country run. ah..feels good to be so close to nature. makes me forget everything i dont wish to care. the waters. the trees. the feeling of nobody else around. even the flash rains didnt bother me. why take shelter? its not everyday u get to soak in the rain!

friday/saturday/sunday...whoa. nearly two full days in camp. slept alone in the whole bunk for 20. cool. had the world to myself. i guess i can get used to this. but ack. didnt see anything SPECIAL. oops..wasted?

in the guard room looking at squirrels fight each other. feed the fish. follow the butterflies and birds. wore more layers as it started to rain heavily. i thought about..how..someone would cope with the heavy rain and winds. ack. why should i. im inferior.

-stop these mumbling in my head-

260702--261204

the way fairy tales should stay-> fake.

“他也许没有你的体贴，也不可能有你对我这样细心。“

so despite having some better points i am beaten.

-stop these noises in my head-

there are too many things i done that others see wrongly. Gary you be my judge. Meiz you too. and Sir please dont look at me that way.

wrongfully accused. intentions unknown

-stop these voices in my head-

down the road. i dunno. what gives. and i m critical no more. to myself maybe. but i will shut up.