-briming. with smiles. and some droplets of tears welling.-

oi! saya ialah corporal NEO setelah 30 november 2005 ! baiklah!
saya sangat gembira kerana saya akan kenaikan gaji! ... ooooh hoo..

saya tidak sombong ler..

its just a sense of achievement that i passed the course and achieved what i set out to do. is it about the money? i dont think so. its a joy of getting what you think you can get. the donning of the rank, the ceremony, the people who care. the fun and laughter while we took photos, and how we put Tim and Zoan together in the "couple" photoshoot.. what a riot! its a heady feeling. of promotion. of seeing everything running smoothly. of seeing my silver badge finally awarded to me. so what if i felt that the Best Trainee and Merit awards were not really fair. not that im jealous, but nobody sees the real side of the recipients better then us. i guess it really has to do with ability to be a hypocrite and build the right relationships with the right people at the right time. poof. smooth sailing for you. but anyway i shook your hands. congrats to you 2..

kinda like 3 years ago. when the Best Unit Cadet was supposed to be mine. but no. and then again the hurt of seeing somebody clap for him when he went on stage, that double-faced devil-may-care snake. and i dont see why she cant feel it at that time. although the look on my face sure speaks much louder already.

block leave. targer= weights. run. swim. bowl. i want to hang out. anyone please arrange for me/ with me? i want to live a life, not stare into space.

anyone watch the SEA GAMES? i saw the S'pore gymnast Nicole Tay. is really damn poor thing. fell off the balance beam twice and hurt herself and near to tears but held on till the end. then she burst uncontrollably. hell. its been a while since i cried when i see other ppl cry. i applaud her for her bravery and professionalism.. sigh. too bad we cant ever feel the pain she went through of disappointment.


是谁打翻前世柜惹尘埃是非

纵然青史已经成灰我爱不灭

我只取一瓢爱了解只恋你化身的蝶

我等待苍老了谁 红尘醉微醺的岁月

妹妹，enjoy your prom night. the first prom night is always very special. i know. cause mine was. in many ways. hope he takes good care of you and send you home safely. then i wait for you online ba. wait for your "news report" haha.. duno my brother can find that place anot.. looks very grand to me..