Saturday, December 24, 2005

-whats with the shadow-

excuse me. i am not living in her shadow alright. so what if its has been 364 days since that fateful day. - dear cuzzin of mine. >_< grr

i know. not many people have been reading my blog. i know you are. when you are free. but i dont see your point in encouraging me for every girl that i mention. what you trying to prove. what you trying to get me into?

not everyone forgets. and not everyone wants to forget. i can send it to the back of my mind. even if neutrals insist that i didnt do what i could have. it takes two to click. so perhaps the occurence of someone else was timed perfectly( or has been waiting all this time) since one has lost the feeling, what more can i do if i never once lost the feeling.

all this trying to pair me up with people is not a single bit cheering me up nor comforting me. its around 2 months since i gave up girls. im still insisting that. its always easy to say all the sweet nothings. but what is said and what is really valued and treasured? i like to see how many of such truly exists. and your language hardly improved. i dont need to second guess to know that is you.

i may be spiteful. to me a stupid move was to to give up my friends for someone whom i was certain was important to me. only to see that she hardly feels that same. as deep. of course. its my fault.

meiz. is meiz. not going to have the chance to make mistakes again. splurge on what i want. not having to think of surprises that werent appreciated. or make time for meetings that were cancelled at the last moment. for some people see friends more important than a particular dear "bebe". and to tell that in my face.

one of the past. one of the present. so much for wanting to marry and be the wife of. "sweeping of the feet" nice poem. where you got it from. End. i m long didnt want to speak. i was spurred to. chapter closed.

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