-wasted day-

ah..by the time u all read this.. sheffield utd should have beaten liverpool. wahaha! LOOOSERS.. see what did i tell you? dont give me that stupid face "I confirm liverpool win 2-0 one guarantee!".. lan pa la... i at most give you 1-1.. konek di atas kepala deh! its not the first time i giving you advice when you ask. just choose not to listen. chey.

now why did i start off with that? hmm

yup. this week i attained silver for IPPT again! at least maintained.. running also faster already :) $100 extra.. can buy shirt.. or sandals.. hmm.. walao so little.. oh ya but the week was damn haunting. theres this dream that struck me so bad in the morning. even have to interrupt 45 mins nap before start work. i was given this black suit that will camouflage myself at night.. then i realise it can help me float and "fly". thats why i saw U. so i ran / fly over only to see u in another guy's arm and sitting on him. god. i just stare. its disgusting! who the ... was that? why would u choose somebody like that? neither good looking nor charming rich nor good nor.. urgh.. but i was tearing myself up.. cause i went over to punch him. i really beat him up. then i realise i was DAYDREAMING in my own DREAM. so i didnt punch him up. but i woke up my whole body was very hot. its scary. im sweating like mad even though the window is open and fans are on.

mummy ask me dont think. if i think too much about it it may just become part of your sub-conscious. then i suddenly remembered. oh ya true.. the more vivid it is in your mind, it probably will just happen. just like what i dreamt before. so i let it drift. but actually havent been thinking much about u leh so why..

LOL. friday was at Labrador park.. can see sentosa.. then sms U.. dont know why no reply until the night... at office submit my booklet and fill in my placement. we all graduate from EDT le! but still a bit stressed cause i wanted to be champion. now dont even know any one of the 5 of us inside top 10. sigh. hope...
then mum throw spanner suddenly appear when i ask 4 aunt to go only.. what stupid reason man.. dont think i dunno. then mummy later ask me my mum there is it than i say ya.. they couldnt tell la.. then went Minz house play mahjong. got beginner's luck leh haha.. win a little bit la but still dunno how to play exactly. but i was very sleepy couldnt absorb the rules. just play simple lor.. then mummy gastric i heart pain. like i offer help she also agitated. thats also why i dont ever dare to really care for any other girl anymore le. so many times.. that i try to feel and understand.. i get black face or angry tone. i know sometimes it cannot be helped. but i feel very upset by such reactions. perhaps its a sign ba. mummy eat regularly k.. play until 430 lidat.. i dunno i gong le.. sleep..around 6am.. think U called..but my hp low batt i didnt see it turn off.... but u sick+exam i guess.. u wont want go out so.. hai nvm lor :p

saturday night le.. my so-called holiday from office going to end. tml will be going for graduation ceremony.. which i will have nobody going with me. LL lor..

-i feel. therefore i am. i do, because i feel right. people can think that its all in vain. but i dont see it that way anymore. as long as i did what i could..im happy .. i guess. dont ask for anything in return. oh ya.. guess i really going TP. thats what i planned out for now.. so..will be overseas Uni.. i make people laugh, no matter how stupid i have to become. cause laughter is a joy. i want it to be in everyone. cause i seldom laugh. or smile. from the bottom of my heart. i feel..its my mission.. to bring smiles to peoples' faces. so.. people can criticise me la its ok but.. nothings gonna stop me ba.. no longer will i take what others view me as what i should change le.. i hope? (",)-

last week of exams for U. jiayou! and then can relax .. meanwhile.. i go and think about what my operation will be like.. i guess im a little scared.. >_<