-wah..the agony-

august 3rd has come and gone. i didnt become a manager. do u think i forgot my promise to u? i have not.
dora and ling's birthday. we made a video for them. they cried. blow candles.two to three to four to five to six including me. im a "sister". then they fought cake. strawberry. run about. past 12. nobody cares to go home. i can only shudder. damn. next day going camp. even though half-day going alexandra for appointment. and the sheer agony and frustration not able to join the whole bunch of them go clubbing. dui.. so dui.. sibeh dui.. thats why i was so moody the whole day. sorry xiao mei sorry mummy i lidat. but mummy today very pretty wor. and seeing dora go club first time. enjoy yourself xiao mei! too bad. i took my own cab home.

i dont like the look on his face. and i dont like him trying to arrow my response. and that i couldnt go gai gai with xiao mei during "free time". but ..ok then forget it. theres time for everything..

thursday. half day. nua slack in morning. feel bad. cause not enough sleep. throw work to people. then go half day got ride. appointment for operation. thought xiao mei and mummy all going ice skate. then suddenly change. wah sian. thought finally get to go. then found how to go xiao mei house 961 find them sleeping diao.. too tired la. return mummy her laptop and talk to them loh.. haiz its strange people can be so difficult even when grow up together..all the differences now and even politics. but at least i know better now. i will always be there for xiao mei to help her grow up, and help mummy ,also take care u 2 together. xiao mei family go orchard makan. me and mummy take bus go home. wah they make me crave la.. sushi pizza. haiz. too bad i blew my pay plus negative le. so fast this month why ah.. never go shopping also..

feel bad leave KJ TS there alone at coy. although bridge them to mr steven and mr ben. but felt i could do more. and mummy didnt go "support" Emmanuel and his mother. but im sure ms yvonne did well. PP secured! :)

friday. volleyball. stuck in tree. lol. i was "used" because tallest bo pian. sigh got alot prop to do.. haven get started. wait... at coy thanks to mr calvin. max is one with us. i will take care of u all i swear. because you all made the right first step. Carl's Jr Portobello is good hee. wah so greedy.. past 12. sorry that i woke u up? thought u stll waiting go party world. i didnt expect it. so.. sorry too..

saturday. skip lunch. eat 2 buns. met ling and wait for mummy at JE. then late to meet Max at coy. confirm kena suan and "scold" but hope Max didnt mind. starting to get stressed. i want to graduate. to be top. to be a legend. a hero to change history. start learning to teach. and lead. and not fear. im a good listener ah. thats why i stay stay stay. abit bad to my guys. also dont like other chap ji ka.. oops know who? haa.. then pei mummy want go Brewerks drinking. didnt go in the end cause mummy down i also passive wah.. infectious. but when Makansutra eat satay fried rice bbq wings. yay nice. mummy ask me dont buy the beer not worth it. then talk alot of things la. mmmy will fly off in one month. we all gonna miss her. and she got alot of things must settle first. supposed to go clarke quay drink but..in the end didnt. mummy tired la. i dont mind de.. mr alexx please got alot people want you to be well so please dont do stupid things k?

174M reach home 410 like that. skip my NR wait for bus were mummy and i can take together. then drop at BB then i took home. overshot one stop cause i want see the route. lucky we both got home to sleep quite early. heh. 930 morning call. prove to "my fav manager" we can be there. heh! SDM 1130.

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-heard that mr alexx's target is apparently just using him cause he is quite successful now and rich.. abit like leeching his money. we all advise him of course. he sees it too. but we all know how love can make us do things.. so.. yup he knows ba. slowly.. maybe he will do the right thing. if not we all under him also do wrong? haha guys ma.. i know whats right la.. i guess. what i want. of course if i really become
that way i should know what to do..-

mummy sleep le wor. mr alexx take care too dont want you to go hospital..

i wonder. around evening. where were u? meeting what friends gai gai? oh.. is it the guy to watch 'Click' cause is weekend.. u said..i think. saw the flashes in the sky. glimpses of the fireworks. just wondering. could u see it? it would be nice. if i could see it with u. but. just a passing thought. maybe NDP. but. wonder if u saw it. its beautiful. wish u well.