-high and low. less high more low-

seeing U fulfilling a little part of ur dream

priceless

thanks to elizabeth for dolling up

thanks to mike to taking the wonderful setup and shots

thanks to vivienne and ben for choosing the right person

thanks to onezine.com for the opportunity

thanks to all for including me in the last shot with U

by far the prettiest shots i have seen.

part and parcel of giving people the wrong impression= at least i never had the wrong mindset. i am safe. i do not go against my conscience. so its up to people to judge. i can only feel trampled if people have to turn around like that. im sorry. that im not sorry.

at least tell me.

ah as for U.. well. at least u admit u was very bad tempered at me before. haha.. and now towards him. well u know what is wrong. so change lor. hee. and dont have to thank me. they chose u because u are good. i was just there to oversee things for u. and be there at ur defining moment. be confident. cause u have shown. and u shone.

and truly. believe. that im here to help u. please i dont want anything else to be thought..

have never truly wished to see people suffer. especially when i have been through alot..

-20oct2006-

promise

i never will let U go home urself

if i am there

not if i could help it

-i see pieces of myself in U-

still

-boi and ger-

-boy meets girl-

boy eyes girl

boy likes girl

boy walks with girl

boy talks to girl

boy asks girl

girl nods

boy takes girl's hand

boy smiles

boy hugs girl

boy strokes forehead of girl

girl smiles

boy hugs girl

-lil bit more

boy thinks of kissing girl

boy in casual

girl in uniform

-boy and girl-

notice why i use boy and girl?

cause they really are boy and girl

secondary 1 at most

so whats it gonna be like?

bf/gf at 13 ?

father mother by 17?

grandparents by 35?

puppy puppy love love puppy puppy love

love puppy love love puppy puppy love love

must be getting old.

cause the sight was unnerving

小孩不懂事？

头痛。。 好辛苦

- NUA-tivity -

消极。是会感染的。
why are there so many people who dont seem to see opportunities, and fear the obvious?
choose to wait, and regret. choose not followonly when proven, and blame others?

why am i inflicting pain to myself? this 3 weeks has been so painful. pining for hope.
2 week ulcer, sprained thumb. dry lips, groggy eyes, human problems, brain problems.
lack of motivation.

fug. i dont believe it. i need someone here to push me. a different kind of push.
i am that weak i have to admit finally.
desperate.

nua-tivity to the max. i want to let go. just disappear like what i did before to everyone. but i know that i cant. and i know this process is worth it. but hey.. its hard now ok.. im flesh and blood. i want to run away!

i dont want to let anyone down. much less myself. and Von who always makes me feel..well i still have value that i can give others.

guess have to accept that Princess is..gone?
i promise too i will stop paying girls attention.
last night i already screamed into the haze coverd sky that " i have no more confidence in girls to Cindy Jiez" then Minz saw and heard it. haha. well. truth hurts.

trust. my power. the opportuniy's power. and i will bring you to places you have never imagined. and unparalleled wealth..you have never smelt or thought possible.

before that. i want to nua. just. lie in the pool whole day.. can i ?

-心里的雨倾盆而下-

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

只是放手会比较好过。。。?

最美的爱情。。。在回忆待续

break.. take a big yawn. hitting my target generating 1K income per week. seeing them earn money as well as myself. oh well.. but still..nobody to go shopping with me. my G2000 and Zara shirt. my Nike wear. shoes.. my new wallet is going to be special reward.. (,") (",)

寒风冷却了我手中的鲜花

taken leave for helping Princess. but no. nothing heard. moved new house. wasnt involved. wasnt invited. wasnt even contacted. yet i live on. pining for the day things fall into place. where i do not have to take other peoples' troubles to cover up my own. depriving me of my smiles.

i like to be involved in the action like yesterday Von! money flying everywhere. e-points and thousands change hands. placing accounts. taking notes. woo.. thx for the ride home too. you cousins are very funny haha. dont forget you havent transfer my 2k to me wor..haha. im gonna be the BAM for your BEM.

and to slap those people with the money i made. and shut them up for good.
i going to take back what the world owed me by the age of 25.

我陪你走到最后
能不能别想太多
我一定走到尽头
你说我若一个人会比较自由...?

will i get to go K tonight... hmm

"get a fling get a fling. booze ciggies ONS romp.
have friggin fun y'know wada mean my style my brand of rules
Jay in da club promiscuous the name of the game.
F*it cuz da rest are having fun yo
changing partners like clothes yawl ?
negative influence gettin to ya head yawl?"

ultimate nua-tivity