-missed week-

WAH
i missed blogging since Von's birthday outing to MoS?
from all that Whiskey dry,bourbon, vodka and hell lots of dancing
(not to mention smoke and burnt marks..and saving people all over..)

heh

but that is also the reason why
im scared of clubbing
seeing people get a lil out of control?
or just that..
i have a responsibility to protect
i..wouldnt want that to happen to u
though
u
are really really
no longer within my responsibility
i guess

i understand le
clubbing is my escape
that moments in the thumping music
and the sea of bodies
iforget my day
i forget the time
i gorget my name
and i forget what i been through
thats why i look forward to it
until the music ends
23 december.last day of work for 2006
Mambo. St James. and many more..lets go..

16 december
torrid day
wasnt supposed to be
went MacRitchie trekking
treetop trail
still alright
despite the fever 2 days
hungry..
thinking of what to do after that

kayaking.
i didnt want so badly
but i was game
not a wet blanket
how wrong was i
i did no harm
i didnt provoke
they turned mine into the water as i docked and supposed to come out
i lost it
i totally lost it
i already said my hp was with me
i didnt think
i just took apart my 7610
i didnt even remember my Mont Blanc money clip
both are absolutely ruined
i couldnt think
for the rest of the day i was sitting there in the sun
lost
wallet looks like disease-plague piece of carcass
7610 was flickering
fcuk
no sorries
no concerns
"oi no childhood what you doing?"
was even called that!
but no i didnt care about face.
i only want my phone
what if people were looking for me?
i want to call tingting
i had the feeling
i could be wrong
but i want to try..

i was angry beyond words..
sorry Q..badly wasted your time..made you feel lost too..
dinner at Kublai Khan...okay..variety..but the mood..was just..waiting..
found time to call Tingting..
went over PS..
went SPOTLIGHT find her tent decorations..
lace fabrics..

arcade,saw the child back in her..smilez..
walking home..on the bus..waiting..
yawnn..dont thank me..
the pleasure's all mine
cause i was lost anyway..
slept at 5..
hoping you left the thoughts far away
thoughts of the jerk

-when there is really nothing else better
dont just settle for the temporary enjoyment you expect to get
cause most of the time its a facade...-

argh..do the right things
those that really benefit you
please..
and dump the stupid thoughts of what you shouldnt think