-doesnt it feel so nice-

when you got time to while away..yet look back now...kinda wasted?

but i dont care. i want to just rot. its so simple its addictive. and its been so long since i had it.
sleeping till 9+ crawling out of bed at 10 running through com till 11 shower and dress by 12 photocopy stuff and meet for servicing at Pioneer Mall by 1... and getting so many stares at my Mont Blanc wallet as well as the laptop presentation and what i am talking about.

cause i simply enjoy saying all that i said. and im glad CW saw it too.
im gonna convert him
and turn Max around
but didnt i have a tinge of regret
that i had to say it until he got 'overloaded' ?
but thats my lifestyle
NOT work
and even a break fails to take it out of my system
now is it good or bad

i find that im not arcade material.
i simply not gifted that way. hmph.
thrashed
moan moan grumble mumble


i punished myself.
i havent had meals for 2 days already
cause made no appointments
so just walk around distracting myself
and seeing kids holding hands.
PDAs
hands on hips
hand in hand
hand on head
im still coughing
stupid ulcer on the tongue
stupid throat
i sound like a toad


but i stil thinking do i want to take it my own time

i went into a daze.
i nearly walked into a parked bus.
and was scolded by this stupid auntie/grandmother
"叫那个年轻人帮你。。" to a young mother with a baby in a pram
"哎哟。。年轻人不会帮忙要老人来帮忙。。“ after the mother say no need

F...

nvm. sua. cant be helped i didnt grow eyes on the back of my head so i didnt know who was there. and if ever i will do it purposely and not help please curse and swear and convict me to jail alright?

DONT I HAVE THE RIGHT TO ZONK OUT AND NOT GIVE A SHIT TO MY SURROUNDINGS?
and after all i am just not paying attention to whatever was happening around me. i cant stone? uh huh?

wow the day is getting better by the minute! CY not meeting Lingz so i dont have to go .. so much FREE time with no plans! i loooooove being useless...

can? just let me fade away? please..
i just dont want to face it all ..alone....