-incapacitated-

stupid splitting stomach cramps
making me sound like a girl having her period

things i should have said
should have insisted


as for U
i dont know why
maybe because it only sounds that way to U
but i never blame U
willingly
nor do i want to pick a quarrel
take care during ur attachment
maybe next week..


as February draws to a close
my income.. sucks.. this month.. not gonna let it continue

-shoot..-

was supposed to say something..
but..shucks i forgot..
why am i always stumped at the crucial moments

ah..recalled..


why is it that when we kiss
and you ask me to look U in the eyes
and not to close them at all
U were the one who couldnt resist
and giggled
and shyness overcome u
that U pull away
and laughed
couldnt look me in the eye?
no..no offence.. but just..recalled
and wondered..what went through ur head..


good night..im rolling in pain.. stupid stomach..

-the week-

whirlwind of visitings
ended with the last day on thurs
went Cine Kbox with Sandy meiz
and finally passed her her gifts..haha

haven relaxed like this for sometime
uninhibited playing in the Kbox room
singing and being free
no embarrassments
isnt that how life is supposed to be?

supposed to go lao da house ..
brought her to Delifrance CCK for dinner..
well meiz now you can say you eat there before already..haha
and drag me to arcade play ball! ahah
cramp leh..shooting and shooting..

its really very haunting
to see the people around me living within their means
and being controlled by the situation
when i got something i can really help them
if only they hear me out
and i dont want them to lose this opportunity..

living the high life with cindy Jiez
found out that there is actually so much one can do if we know the places
and money is out of the equation
not very expensive
but the experience and just to chill out and talk about everything
all i ask for

(",)

City Space Rocks... haha
next time..who will go with me..


and i waited for the call for st james
and i kinda realised
by the time the clock went to 11
that i should head home
and not hope anymore

at least U are well now
after seeing doctor.
take care.
here comes March

-did i mention-

the dream of us
the one in "my old house"
the one with U and me
on the bed
i dont know before
i dont know after
all i know is
...

it was hot
we were irresistable

and what does it bode for us
or is it just a Freudian slip of mind
the venue is impossible anyway
but yet it was very visual i could feel you sweat


the night i stayed out with ting outside ESTE
felt so useless
felt so beaten
that its always the people you care
fall into a vicious cycle
and KNOWINGLY not wanting to get out of it
its a stupid scenario
and a stupid choice
its not just plain lazy
its just...too easy to not think about it?

as for U
i dont blame U
cause i can understand
do i can i?
that i dont mind
and its a promise
which u may not remember
or not want me to fulfil
but i take it as my word
and i prithee the day cometh


am i growing skeptical of everything
'cause there's this "dont be greedy" and must be someone generous spirirt
around CNY
but why is it
people all buying 4D and praying numbers drop from nowhere
shaking hands and exchanging words of well wishes
only when the draw comes out a few people will win the money...

or do you imagine someone buys 4D Toto etc and says :i wish my friend wins and not me..

blah blah..the hypocritical scenario



i fear too k
i fear im chasing something wrong
despite every reason for doing so being so damn correct

-i kinda realised that....-

SUBWAY makes for a good 'singles' meal;
when you are alone, eating there is very much the solution




i've tasted you
and im hungry again




i hope i won't turn out cold and steely
once twice too often after i hit these walls

smattering of collection from other cameras.. :)

-6/7 feb-

the aftermath
the return

ya so what if i hit manager..
plenty more to be done

rested and charged
ready to sprint again
this time its no marathon
glory..beckons

just hope that
when i am home
really
i feel peace
not facing animal trainers
threats
or uncompromising situations
i have my right to my own time
i haven had it for 7 days
let me be
can?

urgh

t when i have to control something

stopping by Hongkong airport for some Ben and Jerry's ! then its off to the flight back home.. aww.. Hazel 女儿seat next to me.. look at the clouds..and dont dare to drink Chivas on the rocks.. >_<

日月潭-breathtaking natural beauty and clear skies and water.. prayers at the temple there and felt the nice sunshine.. and bought a few small gifts..

greatest tripartite team in the world!
(unashamed)

tadah.. posing in front of the fengshui parlour..
shall not mention how much i spent there..

but i like it..i still wear it ;)

acting silly with kelwin at 埔里

alcohol and wine making area.. nice cool weather and alcohol delicacies..

after the dinner.. everyone still very high.. lol..went to catch toys and play ball..

hazel 女儿 looks on.. ;) i caught two little bears for my 女儿s hazel and fiona too ok.. myself and minz too

at the gala dinner over 900+ people from all the Sunshine countries attended for the new Taipei project launch as well as the finishing of Taichung GPs..

can see the variety? talk about the flavours.. :)

-con't-

well the first night.. steamboat.. 马拉火锅。。