-splurge-

26th april
Thompson London cufflinks +
Goldlion cufflinks= $272.20
Armani Exchange woven bias cut placket shirt (white)=$199
POLO Double Black fragrance=$88

one day splurge spree
guilty
dont ever want this feeling again

here comes MAY
income explosion beckons
asset rich, cash richer!

-still..but still...-

so close to throwing the ring
*stop*
today is Ur birthday
i didnt say anything

burning
a new direction unfolds
bated breath
once confirm
i wil run again

-and....yoU-

*trink* cute things come in small packages
why is it a monkey at the back? hmm hinting?

*soooooooooooooooooo cuuuuuuuuuuutttte*
*melts*

thanks for being there at the last hours of my day

you drink 'more more warm water' too

-happy 21st birthday to me-

good stuff wor..thx to 老大 Von *muackz* mummy and uplines sidelines downlines

mummy going to 教坏我

my first mont blanc :D

SUPER-DUPER light titanium SEIKO timepiece

scary..lighter than Ben's ring...

THANKS TO ALL AT THE CHALET

including allan howard calvin steven kent daniel ben ts emma jun kuang

(and my jie mei-s who are on the way into m'sia.. haha and everyone who knew my birthday and chipped in their signatures and sms on the day itself)

feel...reborn.. plenty more to come

-post PSC-

awakening
letting Sunshine reach everywhere where the light and warmth touches

Breaking and entering a new dawn
breathing again
nothing can force its way into my mind
PSC
indeed a life-changing course
everyone should go
but not everyone can go through it

yes i did think of giving up
its so easy to
but i m stubborn
but stubborness is only limited
the encouragement
the meaning of the journey
the people who matters to me
the distractions i should not have
stir me on

this is my oath
to not deviate from my path
to do my best
and fulfill my obligations
no more excuses
no giving up
and burn 101%
because we never know our limits
until we are pushed to discover it
and we only live ONCE
and not everyone can wait...

i will dump what is holding me back
people i shouldnt spend time on
things i shouldnt linger around
thoughts that dont stand to push me forward

instead

for the people whom i want to propel higher
people i should care about and support
people i have promised
people who have trusted me
people who have been fighting along with me
and
people who cant wait anymore

i got no voice today
but its this inner voice
and flames
that i know
i will keep and remember
and ignite it once again
'cause
you all have never left me
i will not allow it
and i will never ever let my flame die

and yOu
i got a new meaning in this path too
lets bide the time..shall we?

-ah have a confession to make-

made a lil confession today
the outcome doesnt matter right?

-pending...-

all i wanna do is find a way back into love?

that sounds so untypical of me saying that..but the sounds of it keeps ringing inside me


im more interested in paving for a future which i may or may not spend alone.. so i dont see myself stopping
Quen asked me something today: will i be handling my business when i continue my studies, even when push comes to shove; and i answered: are you concerned about grades or future?
I will gladly give it my all, even though i know this can easily fall flat in my face. but its the desire and the opportunity that i know if i dont grasp it and utilise it i will regret.

and i am still so misunderstood. so maligned. and so...misread and misled.
time to stop miss-ing


proud of my burning artwork this week. will take the chance to put it on for all to appreciate ;)

hungryhungryhungry

-crap week-

monday was jiajia birthday..they celebrate at new office but i didnt go.
stupidly have to go back camp to take MC for my feet injury/infection/whateveryoucallit..

tuesday at camp chalet..tanah merah. out of place. quite nice. swim. jacuzzi. sauna! maxed out exfoliation! (i think) then after that realised..its crap and faux camaraderie.. and i am supposed to look "just MC-ed" afterwards..

wednesday. nua.. take injection for flu vaccine..nua.. sleep.. go office take appts..

thursday. nothing special. play water polo. violently. with some girls inside too. nobody likes to lose. blah blah..just get me out of camp for this short week..

friday. meet jiajia at her house area. my old house area. same what.. she not feeling well..still have to chiong homework and juggle stuff..and her lao po birthday present.. dots .. at night. ate fish and co. and realised when i left jiajia also just finished.. dots how come didnt see at all..

likesupermonotonous..withalltheworktobedone..andnot really my own time to plan right? i hate earning so little. i hate the no support feeling. i know i cannot ask for anything beyond...

but i guess my segment on sat noon was ok? mummy also said so. Von also.. my mother and uncle too.. i guess i was a little shaky still and some words still blurted out awkward.. today is tiffany birthday..no wonder jiajia went office. mummy went home so early sleep.. i think minz went jolin concert...is it?


long wait... but pining on the many 'maybes' i can achieve after that...

-moi muziq and lyriks-

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in a past I just cant seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again some day
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All i wanna do is find a way back into love...
I can make it through without a way back into love
Ohh....

I've been watching where the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All i wanna do is find a way back into love...
I can make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping You'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when i dunno if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation...

All I wanna do is find a way back into love...
I can make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to You
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if You help Me to start again
You know that I'll be there for You in the end...




typed out the lyrics after memorising the entire song...( i just dont want to download it off the net...)
speaks volumes just the way it is...its as if they plucked this song right out of me.. enjoy..

-music and lyrics-

late late show
tired
how to help company move to new premises?

it doesnt help to be too practical and pragmatic
while also taking too much note on how pergect certain ideals are carried out

as long as its from the heart
and its true

oops sorry to jiajia because we didnt go eat chee cheong fun in the end
but i wont break the promise!

going to miss the old office
and little bit of Lau Pa Sat and Happy Valley
Managers' Corner and training rooms
new era has begun

mummy today close deal! big big!
i also have new line! whoopie!

whole day of running-worth it.
but now..drained.. sleeping.. 429am