-night clouds-

-just noticed that the good times or sights are always fleeting, and in the meantime i cannot get my mind to decide whether i like it alone or just being with friends hanging out doing nothing. heck. its both tiring to me. whats this predicament.why is it happening to me-

anyone ever noticed the clouds in the sky at night? i regard them more beautiful then the ones in the morning, as they give a different feel when viewed at night. peering out of the window at night ( dont get me wrong, i m not jumping. and yes im quite bored) , the serenity is something money cant buy, yet it makes me wonder about my existence is this lonely planet we call home.

hell i wanna be alone at times. but why is it that i feel sad doing so? i asked for it! can i be contented? brood brood brood...

我顶着大太阳只想为你撑伞
你靠在我肩膀深呼吸怕遗忘
因为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈
多希望话题不断园游会永不打烊
气球在我手上我牵着你瞎逛
有话想对你讲你眼睛却装盲
连蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝
园游会影片在播放这个世界约好一起逛
the simplest joys i can ever think of.. typified in this song.. the importance of being simple, and the little details i cherish and makes me happy. yes all gone. and no i cant find a way to get it back. except to bleed while singing this song.

anyone watch the new channel 8 9pm show " 有福“？
haven been watching serials for a long time.. and gooood thing Ann Kok came back to our little screens.. havent seen her for quite some time and my my she hasnt aged a bit.. still the adorable sisterly type.. ( and my mind goes into a whirl about her being my elder sis again..sigh.. deprived life huh..) and the talk about this world living on images struck me like a thunderbolt: has the world really turned into such a superficial place, where people only look at what they want to see and listen to what they want to hear? what happened to the basic truths and simple lives? do the plain people get phased out? do the unfashionable get ostracised?

-clearly as the days go i realised the reasons of my past are unfolding with the lessons i learn along the way. do i feel better? honestly no. it irks me to learn that the world reeks of people and views like this. or perhaps im just old world-ly-