-dissecting dreams-

- i realised even in my dreams i wonder about your safety. i wish you are careful. i dreamt that you were attacked and attempted molest by a guy. and i was watching in the shadows before it happened. of course i scrambled to help you. but what if it comes true? im not there.-

too. dreamt of me being a girl. something new. but one things' not new. i lost my boyfriend in a shopping mall and running frantically to find him back. yea. the divide between reality and fantasy is so real, i woke up almost crying again. im still scared of dreams. cause they just might come true. i have seen so many of them..happening.. anyone knows about my dreams where i cant find my girl.........

fatigue struck on thursday after nights out. no idea why we woke up drowsy till we were toppling during class. and the same people are still bugging me. with new additions of course. LICKER is what they mispronounce him as.. and boy oh boy does he deserved to be whacked one day. during tuesdays soccer, tim zj and yours truly wer running ragged for our team. then comes LICKER with the magnetic touch to trip me tumbling twice. and even body-bashing to get the ball when i was turning him out to shoot. stop your hypocritical apologies, its just that nobody can see the look on your face but everyone can and will see through you. 2 years isnt very long, and will you be surprised what happens to you at the end...

sourdough face hasnt been as bad as before. perhaps we could really be as good as normal friends. conversations can be struck up well enough.. haha.. just that he still has the snide remarks and bossy attitude without daring to speak up himself instead.

LBK. joke of the group. we can never fathom what is going through his mind. and it will be very scary with him alone at night. bear with him i guess.. and laugh at him. not with him. because we never can get it..

hi seow ken. was really encouraging the other day talking to you. yea i did try.. it worked 5 days as i got out of my old shell.. will work harder. but i really gotta try being bad. u never know what can happen.. but thx for the advice/encouragement. its working.. at least something in my life is working..


-我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由说你不爱我
就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走
是你受伤的藉口
请你回头我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛是我给的承诺-