-sing song-

最爱你的人是我， 你这么舍得我难过

在我最需要你的时候，没有说一句话就走。。。

啊。everyone pull a girl to take photo. like all couple like that. some even gung ho go hug the guy to take..

seeing them have fun. man. i dun even know how to have fun at these places anymore? gosh. im just sitting there staring at the karaoke screen and sing to myself. jeannie must be thinking im crazy to sit at the bar and sing to myself and not part of the others playing a fool..

zoan got award. ha. and cry. but tim never go give her tissue. chey! buay steady.. then we 2 sing the above song lor.. and Lemon Tree.. ahh siao go sing girls song how to hit the pitch.. newer jay chou song also dont have. Eug ask me sing solo without the music. i did. lol.. a bit here and there la..

cant wait to get home only. left at the earliest possible. leave my lao da there.. paiseh hor.. i very spoilsport.. i dunno how to play la.. cant even mingle.. only the closest we know there only.. i think even zoan think i autistic/depression.

argh. why am i feeling so weird. its like a long time never had this feeling le. im following some rules.. reserving myself. for what. or for who? i cant get out of this mental prison. and stop dreaming about the impossible. cant wait for it all to end.

do i care. i guess i do. but. i know its all the wrong signals.

but still. we dont talk. i cant continue a conversation. just like before. i guess thats where i disappoint. nah.