-stepping stones-

3/5
the day i join the company. and start aiming for what i want. and what i will get. yes.

hanging around seeing other people walk around. life flashing past me. i wonder. with all the things i can get when i truly believe. what are some of the things i cant control?

i want to order!
someone who will support me regardless of what i do.
offer advice when i need.
watch from my back and encourage me., even when playing in the arcade (lol i seldom go now..)
give me my silent space when i need it
accept that what i say is for the benefit and try to listen and follow , which i would always do if i get these words of wisdom, and not just acknowledge to make me happy.
to laugh and cry with me, but also see my dreams and support me that one day we will get there.
love me for who i am and what i might become. cause i do think the same.
appreciate what i do even if it didnt turn out well.
have confidence in me cause i will do the same as always
talk to me about anything at all. no secrets. cause i cant read minds and want to share whatever burden there is.
be a friend and a lover.
never having to apologise when we keep our promises and words. (gou gou finger!)

was that basic enough?

stepping stones to finding the right clique be it for work for friends and future business partners. and working towards my car and financial security. not just for my retirement but for my whole family's
thats why i want to be a success. challenging what others have done.

only had 7 hours sleep in like.. 2-3 days. yawn. the start is always the hardest.
yawn. read FEMALE mag. sheesh. nowadays reading alot of stuff to learn variety of stuff. next time i know more about girls then they know themselves. and what guys lack. disgusted by how guys really really dunno what girls want. and sex is not just a performance or a job to finish and go sleep. no wonder so many girls complain about guys not being sensitive enough. sex without love is just exercise. it should all compliment. its beyond orgasms and highs. and the intimacy that binds. but all this will just start another debate. sensitive and gay? or rough and big ego man? humans are weird. they choose too much.

want buy boxers. going out without underwear feels weird. (ya why cannot is it? sue me lor.) got a bit pain for 2 days. lol. must be the badminton "performance" ya. and scratched my scar with another injury. grr. but was still outplayed by the old men.

read colinandkero.blogspot.com
felt so much fortunate for them even though i feel weird. ya gay couple but so? gays are so much sexually and emotionally attached and satisfied. we all dont hear about infidelity amongst gays right? although some of them are promiscuous but still.. happy.
ya ya i knw stupid cousin yesh im still ever so sadist and attached that how you wish i turn gay so i can be happier no? im healthily heterosexual ok sorry to disappoint you but haha we still do stupid stuff in camp. and yes my butt is still desirable. (blush)

U say u want buy shoe. how come nobody gave you for your birthday? or really u trying to say only i prepared something for your birthday? cant be. but u remembered the time Ah Boon wanna buy for u stuff i say go ahead ask him buy for u since he insist and i didnt get it for u yet (or is it..?) but u say dont u shouldnt do this to others cause u are with me and shouldnt use him. (whats the thing hmm.. cant remember)
now u r hinting for me to buy you the shoe? i really like to know what is in it for me. yes sorry to say i still feel like i should take care of you and pamper you but i dont see how come the person who should do it more fails to do so. perhaps im easier to ask for something then him then. good luck in your shoe hunting. if u believe hard enough that u will get it this year u will.
knowing you is never so easy. thats why i dont think anything he done in this one year can compare to what i studied. but is just like... History. i take pride in what i knew. and remember what i learnt.

thx Von. for using the phrase "happily single" know what you been thru and might as well be this way right. and thx my mentors too. (grr mentors younger then me.. im old! no la) many more millions to make! and Raku Ninja at Raffles MRT is great! you still owe me one treat no? haha..

YAY CHALET COMING! but SIGH GOT PEOPLE I DOWAN TO SEE! AND NEXT FEW MONTHS NO HOLIDAYS! make money make money make money. make friends make partners.
work learn enjoy drink sing dance chiong. tired .. adapt to panda mode...

Quen and me. havent been kissed in close to two years. sorry i always let you take my shit here and there. but i swear already 3 weeks ago i am starting on a clean slate. so slap me if you see the need k? and we should stop acting gay. (oops..) when we talk