-是什么作祟为什么会流泪 原来是心痛不断责备 我该懂得体谅和后退-

i will take it as i lost my muse. maybe one day i will find another one. but at this moment, 7 days gone, i made a pact with God. you take my muse away , i wont let you take my mood away. so i will not be sad i wont cry i wont wallow. even though im lonely i live my days as my own.

Sandy meiz first week of school! is too bad she say her class very sian de.. hmm. must learn to cope with boring people ah! and later i will have to let you tutor me about comms and media le.. i become junior.. :(

instructors can see that i dont sleep well. every night at least wake up twice. haiz. my runs also becoming slower..
how many weeks of stay out le. and still i am the only one who stay in camp. why? nobody asks me out no programs nothing. want me to go home everyday? let me have something to look forward to everyday, then i will book out and go find the person/thing/whatever... Boredom MAX!

cry so painfully.still shocked awake from dreams. will there be anything that will make U miss of me? i just want to know. maybe i have such an impact. at least i have been a bit significant. but i know all this will go unanswered too. but i sure hope to know. please.

-cause the impact of love is measured by the crater it left behind-

did U read my last entry? hmm think i thought too much. your sim locked i didnt know thought you dont want reply my zouk invite. now you unlock le ok lor good then others can contact you. wonder how you lived those days without the hp. no lovey dovey calls and sms bah? lol..

i exploded on friday though. sigh. all the victims got thrown things by me. but seriously dont push your luck. doesnt mean i dont beat people up you all can treat my place as a dumping ground k? things dont belong to you dont take, put it back at common area, not JUST THROW AT MY BED AS IF NOTHING K?

(vulgarity)... your parents never teach? want me teach? basic principles k stupid kids.. do unto others what you want others to do unto you. not just leave your problems with others and expect them to be solved. PUI...

heard U going learn bike. jiayou ba. i can see him being so influential in your life. go for it. for u trust him more in the 1 plus year more then our 3 hard years. i applaud him really. he is special. i just dont hope this is just a fling for him to forget his past. like the way u asked me before "will you take revenge on me?"

can i have a birthday wishlist?
a shoulder to lean on, ears to listen to, a heart to link with, a brain that connects like my own.
(haha.. all this add up to 1 LOVE only wor...)
A Canon 350D camera
A McLaren SLR / Nissan Skyline Gt-R 34

... okay okay i know nobody prints money here..
i just hope to get a little something on my day thats all.

HEY WORLD I CAN STAY OUT im free! SO ANYONE CAN COME GET ME OUT FOR A SIMPLE MEAL AND TALKING SESSION ON MONDAY?

all i ask for ..for my 20th birthday...