-你在哪里？-

你失踪已经一个星期了。
is this another of your "let me forget you" tactics? no sms no reply call what so ever..
ZJ told me when one day i will suddenly think of you out of the blue after a long period of time i didnt recall anything about you, that will be the time i really have forgotten you. but so far it seems only happened on one occasion. this week when i was moving alot of stuff in and out and quarrelling with people who just stand around and look and after that went for a moody run around the camp. too many things on my mind? but that one day i think i didnt.

will that change anything i think not. and i been fighting with myself. since i know your blog why dont i read? if i read i may be wrong too. but if i dont read i must be dumb right? but when you go missing or uncontactable i used to go thru your friends call your home etc to find you. but i only get scolding from you. "why have to go thru friends to get me? you think i will go missing or kidnapped?" i take it as i dont know how to read you. i just know i want you to be safe and healthy and happy. maybe the way i show care is not the way people realise.

"leave me alone i wanna scream"

want me to forget you so be it. i dont blame you. i never blamed you anything. i already said it is a challenge to love you and i am willing to take it all the way. Be it my looks my character my mum and dad my health or my financial situation, i have lost ultimately, not to Weijie whom you say is the only person who can sway you, but by someone who.. shant say anything, lest you hate me even more. hes the perfect one after all. not many guys can take that from their gf. but when you say it to me when you were still with me i am more determined to prove you wrong. guess i still failed. he gives something i cant give you, i dont know. i may forget you yes, but neither will i give my heart to another again.

meiz i know if you see this you will scold me. but no..

在你离开之后的天空
我像风筝寻一个梦
hai. can only use what others wrote..
我静静的望着天空
试着寻找失落的感动
只能用笑容
期待着雨过天晴的彩虹
one day i will write my own lyrics and play my own song.

and i only hope you all dont hate me for anything. yes EVERYONE of you whom i know or knew.
for im down and out, i dont need you all to step on me.
i need a hug. i really could do with some love right now. i cant take all this for so long..

but i wont ask for too many favours from anyone. i know i dont deserve this.

失去了你的拥抱
寂寞在一旁嘲笑
他笑我无处可逃
我变的好渺小

hows this for a start? ->
我向夜空祈祷
我向星星祈求要你的微笑
我向月亮 showoff拥有你的好
我向云朵祈祷
让微风吹走你所有的烦恼
不管别人的言语
你在这世上最重要
而我只希望你最终是开心的

-you still want DKNY DELICIOUS for female? tell me. but just to let you know if you see this. i regret never telling you this: that i never hoped you would buy any perfume or fragrance. cause that will take away the smell that is truly you. the smell that lingers in my heart. but anyway if you still want i dont mind.-