-我的二十岁生日-

谁
还记得
是谁
先说
永远
的爱我？

monday
was my 20th birthday. celebrate with a lonesome dinner. in my cap my jersey at pastamania. pizza and pasta. got a sms from Shai. at 1130 (phew!) got Estella's sms that she didnt forget my birthday. gee thx to you two. but my platoon only a few knew. but sorry no presnts. not something unexpected. i could have taken leave from work. guess i didnt see the need to. i knew i wont be going anywhere. so just slept around 12...

didnt realise that 3 people didnt wish me anything. thats what disappoints me most.

ahh the monotony of work. how long do i have to do this still? though noble, its getting boring..
hmm and sent out the prepared stuff. its always on my birthday that i prepare this sorta stuff for u.
and the week passed great. though i did know i kept my hp off for a number of reasons.

im fine the way i m now. though i could ask for more. like my france jersey wish. they didnt pick me. they pick some baby-g watch for some other female soldier. sheesh..

(hey girls out there.. i lower my expectations! last i said i will just marry you if you buy me a Skyline R-34! now i will just about marry any girl who would buy me a Trueno AE86.. i must be sick. or mad. or both. i love the car. cars. cars. cars. 4 wheels. vehicles. rah rah rah..)

i dont feel like im faking it. its genuine. maybe i was born to be with cars. so that girl on the 169 please stop touching my back. its not that squeezy.

Sunday.
play soccer at the same big park opposite the Taman old coffeeshop/market that was torn down. i headed the ball so hard my specs flew. luckily it was an old pair. but i felt so stinging pain. then i touch my head. got blood. then i realise.. haha i broke a pimple... GEE! lol. then another direct ball hit my face. but that didnt hurt at all. how strange.. i must be immune to pain le. HIt me with what you have guys! haa

you got my present. wheres mine? at least you got it. not lost somewhere.
and if u wanna go places i said not to. well. so be it. but i will do everything i can,bar physically, to prevent it. i have promises to keep. you dont want your own safety please tell me. have fun at Sentosa.
hmm maybe 28th i should have taken leave after all. but. whatever.

[last sat went Alexandra. heard the doctor say my tumour was benign. benign? maybe he didnt know the other word was malignant. haha. it looks weird. and its growing for years le. maybe somethings take time to come to. oh well. when ones gotta go ones gotta go. u cant stop it.]

be well all! even if we didnt talk much. im disconnected with the world at large. and chelsea.. watch out next year. things will come down on you hard! Arsenal goes to Paris..