-让懂你的人爱你？-

ugly humans? or just ugly males? its going to be tim's birthday on monday and we went zouk to kinda celebrate for him. and what i see were scenes i dont wish to see people around me commit. are guys really that sick? just as long as its a girl they have to get close and dance? and touch? hands on shoulders on waist on back. malay indian chinese ugly pretty average. Ray and Tim. sigh.. am i really abnormal not to be in this mould like them?

i guess behaving myself during clubbing seems like im not sporting enough? but i really dont see why it should be this way. ZJ "danced" with a girl i think. but didnt do anything ah.. that is still acceptable no?

its very packed. Johnnie Walker bottles $166. vodka baileys bourbon. too bad i didnt eat enough before i went in. all the liquor made my stomach a bit gastric. JD was there to whack QH..lol..well at least i brought QH JH TCK JW along. and my jie Cindy. haha. you couldnt drink alot too! but since you have a driver i think its okay.. next time will challenge ..hee

what i couldnt give to you before, i think i can now.
only think is i dont understand. flirts and people who dont commit, live happier than i do.
and seeing how some of the attached guys behave i will really hate myself if i ever hear such things happen to the one i love.

SoRrY
for too much waiting time at THAT time
for the stupid things i said and the things i should have done
for ever letting you go
for taking you for granted in some ways
'Cuz i have never given up ever.

ZJ asked me this question " do you still really LOVE her or are you just missing the feeling and times you two shared."
i was stunned.
then i realised i was both.. so am i hurting myself.

meimei.. start orientation le.. all the best and do everyone proud even if you didnt get tourism. mass comms next time you can teach me too. lol. and thx for talking to me, but next time use her name k? dont say "you and your girlfriend how le?" cause shes not mine anymore k? stay cheerful and healthy wor..

" i remember .. when you tied two ponytails to BP then.. was it for me? i guess i just want to relive that bit of feeling once a while. maybe i will be happy like my officer advised. and when we share hi-chew apple sweets.-