-dont wan to see it all-

sitting at the back of the living room area
aimlessly staring at the direction of the tv

thought you have alternative ENTERTAINMENT OUTSIDE?
why choose to take up space at home today for one whole day?
why did you bring me to earth but only gave me this broken hole to hide
so many inconveniences that i shouldnt have to go through
im only fugging 20 years old but im thinking like im 50!

now i have to stand your nonsense shit at home. HOME
which has nothing to do with you. cause you did nothing.
only.
inconvenience.
our lives.
and making me die so much faster.
you even make me lose faith in myself to be a good guy, bf and husband.
how you want me to be proud to have your surname?
even relating to you irks me. makes me drop my head.
so dont stay in that corner and look pitiful.
i have give n you enough pitiful points.
no more.
fug off.
forever.
just let me live whatever isleft of my life happily.

let it all come to a closure soon.
if not i will never want to come home.
balik rumah.

HOME is not a roof and four walls.
so i only RETURN TO A FLAT> NOT HOME.

and no no no i didnt say you dont have your faults ma'am. you who carried me for 9 months. its just that i can see who suffered. but i wont go onto it..

i am not vengeful. i just want a piece of what im worth.