-first try without picasa..-

from my recent taichung trip
welcome to EGA's Empire Communications!

-haiz-

explain more next time
wont be back till the 6th feb

-i realised..yet again-

just back from guard duty.. gotta be a long week till 6 feb when i can get out again

went dinner and shopping and drinking with Jiez..
i got the earrings..
lament lament lament..


i guess its perfectly ok to be a weekend lover
as long as there is no lasting commitment involved?
so long i can be an anchor for someone's hunger
its not wrong to be a service like that..am i right?
i mean
if a girl is out looking for love
its not wrong to satisfy a pang in her
if she doesnt get her desired outcome at the end of the week
of course
it would help
perhaps
if there was just a little tinge of love
in the clandestine (perhaps not?) relationship
that gives it a kick..


heck
i really dont mind
its not selfish

-research shows...-

that women find men who are desired by other females more attractive

aka attached men tend to get more looks from other females

(so NOW i know why U fell for THEM..not? because everyone just keeps sayin he is good he is good perfect better blahblah..)


and we also now know why there is are divorces .. cause women tend to look at married men..and that men are not steady enough


[VOMITS...]

-backkkk-

time to settle down
and reflect
and once again pick up my guns
and leave the trail blazing

one can only regret the things they didnt do good enough
im not gonna let my disappointments pull me down for the future

Lovehappens

sorry my 女儿s, 爸爸 was very moody on the way back
because i couldnt stand the thought
of going back
leaving the fun
and facing the fact
that i didnt have the freedom to spend like i want to
it SUCKS

the next time
it wont happen
i want to fly
uninhibited
and no need to face the idiocy
of restrictions

i dont want to need gifts
and i want all you to be around
cause you (all) are all that matters now


Von min mummy xiaomei lingz kj ts jh emma (and perhaps very soon 三岁女儿and姐姐 danny sen min kelwin chia wei?)

Boom time

pics coming soon. watch this space

-day 1 and a half in Taichung-

hi world
IM IN TAICHUNG!

left home. sillyappointment. Este bar.. thx to min laaaa go to Eunos then turn back. check in Bencoolen Hotel 81. drink sing..nua.. and arrived at airport for breakfast at BK.

DFS SHOPS ROX..shall go there when i return to get my Smirnoff and Elize

horrible ear popping in the flight. substantial food and not much of a drink.

touchdown at hongkong for a transit flight, the agony of going through extra ear-popping
tried to send sms to people back home. singtel format changed. no time. urgh

arrival at taichung 345pm..yawnz.. take the long bus ride and started to feel like Genting's coolness..until it turned bitter cold. stopover to get a warm drink and tried to catch a Piglet. its so cheap here! but couldnt get it to a position i want. hmm rush rush.

check in at Zhong Xin hotel. next to the girls. wah like bodyguard to them..but in the end change for them to be together. moved to 5th floor. park our stuff showered and went for the night life! Hotpot and ice cream. warming up to the rest of the people.. i can be natural le >_<

responsibility got the better of me at the night market. walked around alone and thought of the silly "alone moments" again. ahh a sick boy.. catching my eyes on all the things i have to buy.catch catch toys.try try stuff. get disappointed get disillusioned. same old me. and the stupid niggling thoughts of what happened before i flew.

bits and pieces gotten, nail-biting cold as well. well because i went around looking for people rather than the things i had on mind. cant wait to go back to hotel at 1 time..when i wanted to go check out the nightlife originally.

(ooh and i saw a first porn shop in my life. at the end of a dvd/vcd shop...seemingly innocent..a facade... hmm)

so far.. a shirt and coat. yet to find shoes and gifts. and ring. blahblah

(the girls want me to mention them so i shall mention.
'20 year old with 3 year old mentality' hello!
and
'milk in mandarin is Gu-ni' girl hello! duuuhhh)

-calm(ed)-

picture
a single droplet of water can cause ripples in a still lake
carrying it far and wide
a decision strong enough
leaves repercussions

at the same time
we are but a cup
solid
touchable
but a cup filled with water
much like our feelings
feels heavier
yet turn it over our hands
and try to grasp them
chances are
they will fall through
no?
what we can attain
are only the solid stuff
so how can feelings overcome our pursuits
that are within reach?

aims:
BAM/BEM-
sneakers at ALDO- $149
Fibo steel ring at mio- $155
finish my licence in one go- April/May
Laptop- <$1900
CPU overhaul- <$1500 budget
Canon 400D- $1699
Toyota RAV 4-

isnt it high time i have something to show?
things shouldnt have to wait so long
i deserve it.

bItE BtE..
anyone wants anything from Taichung?
may not be able to blog until i come back next week..

ayumi hamasaki= Momentum

to do what i want, to whom it may not concern 

-winds of change-

got my net back
at my new house
notice:its not MY home. just anew residence

one week of non-blogging
countdown till now

resolutions
promises
wishes
one granted
to see you
well not exactly
but i found you by the beach
ferry you in front of me on the bicycle
if only its my girlfriend huh?
didnt stay for breakfast
but a movie..you asked
i smiled.inside

yup you are right
you completed my promise
the first person i saw at daybreak
:)

but i also got to know
im not cut out for this
for i can never ask for something that isnt mine
cause i care and concern
for those who have concerns for others
lick me
cause im sour

snow spray and water bombs
noisy sparklers and resolutions
will i be making the speech the next time around>
im so close as of now
i dont want to sense a trip
oh how i want to soar

who is there to catch me
support my jump
and not have a single tinge of odubt or holding back?
cause thats what i need
too many people's doubts corrode the mind
and the "dearest" of them too

living dead
4 months
tide it over
breathe anew

oh forgive me. i was bitter.
5th of jan.
i cant bear to look
for people
fall into the hole they dug
i dont want it to tear you apart again
but
is it sour grapes
or am i just uncannily right
everytime i feel this

but nobody listens the first time round
do they?