- wait... am i obliged to?-

BAH!..

im used to waiting. and not breaking promises is my principle. so maybe i get bullied. or its just another way of paying back to people whom i owe something. really. i dont blame anyone. i just do the wwaiting.

BAH!..

why did u come into my dream again.

how am i going to erase all this.

or am i even determined to forget all that..

that smile. those soft words. that sincerity in your eyes. the hug from behind. the joy. my jump for joy. our hand in hand.

F^*# ... like its ever gonna happen . maybe if i fear it enough it may just happen. like before. all the dreams about u going missing.

that face. whispering "still loving you" into my ears. i should have slapped myself there and then. not letting it continue. all the tv shows are fake. slapping yourself in a dream to wake up is not possible.

its all too real. and all the more disappointing to wake up with a hangover like that.

and it feels like.... crying..