-.....changed me since the day u entered my life/ i think its amazing..

-hold it in your heart
give a little love
have a littlte faith
in the 2 of us-

2 months on. i m not the one i was 4 years ago
people can judge me from hat they seen before, but can U?
when u have seen what i can become
cause not many followed my progress

i dont blame anyone for seeing only what the past me was like
of cause i would love it that they will reset it all and see what i have become
and will become
driven
aged
motivated
understanding
tolerant

"the hardness on the outside contradicts the softness within"
i was referred this way. very true. so much pent up hurt that i couldnt give out
and so much feelings that i regret showing wrongly in the past

i m closing my doors not that i want it but because i hope i can really give my all the next time.
i dont intend to give anyone as yet. cause no matter how tight-lipped i am about this, its pretty obvious i cant give something up. i am so tempted to give in.
i stil hope one day one spark. one love. reunites hearts.
what can change my mind? the "no r/s within this year" stand

ZJ is quite right. i close myself will regret missing the chance? i guess i dont really care. there are really only 2 people that matters.

last . thought of u. in 2 weeks time. now its suddenly. 2 times in 2 days.
am i succumbing?

am i wrong am i weak or just that i still really get what i want.i have clearer goals now. steps will have to be taken one day. today. not tomorrow or later. now.

[view the house next to shuqun primary. going to buy. thiink about e sex toy that u say u "need". wonder if he really already give up and just refuse to say. haiz what s happiness to u and how important it is to me.]

I need answers and i hope this two weeks of busying with exercise will give me a clearer picture.

i can take hints.
see the me now. and what i become.

i m killing the old me and leaving him behind.

very tired now. eyes puffy. nap. then its chiong chiong non-stop two weeks. be well. u.