-never knowing all the things i felt and all i have ever done to try-

15May06
meimeiz mama found my hidden package and put on your table.. grr spoil the surprise le
chicken little + jumbo meow and woof card..plus your family got celebrate wor happy 17th birthday meiz
hearing that you are doing so well in poly makes me glad. but particularly about what happened between you and him made me more pleased; how could you ever put up with those threats and made up stories from him? so im happy you left him, solely because you are much happier now being single and running all those activities and being so much free-er. can hear from the tone of your voice too. and grr all those things that he made you believe about me. you say you can understand he cares, just dunno how to show, but how many people are like you? take me as example can le. i dunno who will ever see my life story, maybe only my meimei in heaven can see and feel for me. all the things i swallowed to try and make the people i want to protect and care.. cant say all..but some really went down the drain.

nvm.

smashing up boxes in camp. venting whatever i had in me. yea i guess i dont go moody anymore but doesnt mean i dont feel. whack whack. sawdust. whack whack longest nails i ever seen before. people directing arrowing me IN FRONT OF ME. M*****f***** who injects poison straight into my back. why? he who badmouths people first wins?
恶人先告状heard before? dimwit ass.
who e hell cares you are so well-liked before? now everyone is just turning screws into your coffin and yet you think their mock praise for you are deservedly so.

saya merindui anda. tak faham? sangat bosan semua hari.

company work was ok. thrilled. closed my first prospect. thx Von Eldora Huiling Huimin Kent Daniel Ben T Calvin James Alexx for cheering me on. hope many more to come.. but now.. got problems with this development... ARGH.
why cant my fairytales always end with "happily ever after" ?

cousin Xiangyan's wedding to Jingal. ok la quite innovative. they danced to stage. got officers in number 1 uniform as sword bearers. officer big loh can use this..haha. the cynic of weddings. look at their ROM photos. thinking how we grew up and how she take care of me. truly wish they are happy.

chalet. abit sian. talk through the night. and boy that taijian.. stupid asshole. i bring myself down to your level to talk to you despite its YOU who treat me like im your enemy since so long. i can forget my face and talk to you and thats how you respond? fine. i will never EVER do this type of thing anymore. so be it if you all think you all are so great cuz i wont try to make things happen for you all. every single one. why should i try and hit a brick wall. after all its you all's loss that i cant help you in anyway since you all leave such an impression on me.

Arsenal lost the final to Barca. another dream shattered. my beloved. i wearing my jersey and crying away. Another year another try? Go Go jiayou..