-i think im in luv.. and fuck u dont owe me-

that IJ's Theresa.. or is it Teresa.. oohh..ahhh...
shucks im acting like a smitten groupie.. but can i help it maybe this is the feeling of love.. lol. shes so sweet andd demure.. and she sings well too. maybe i can go tomorrow to bishan to find her..

haha but saying all that i wont do anything. chui gong lan pa song.. just admire from far lor. everything will past. or so i hope.

had the horriblest-est bowling today. crikey. i couldnt hit more then 110 at all. in 5 games! horrendous. i feel like a total newbie. and i couldnt even get to know why until Ben offered to film my movement. thx for his advice if not i will be thrashing my head out. meng has grown tall. and not as soft. haha so how was your Final Destination at cine? ooh go for the girl la dont have to paiseh with me.. lol..

to think i will goad others to go after someone. hah. its not a game

paris hilton. jessica alba. yada yada yada. "give u FREE u want anot?" they posed this question. stupid army bunk people. so what if i say no? hell doesnt mean they LOOK hot (which i dont think so) and that they are girls and FREE means that they trow at you you must want right? shit. what is the world coming too. just some acceptable looking girl throws herself at you and you take? what ever happened to principles and love and all the exclusivity? or m i just old fashion and wimpy? but i stand my ground. not just anybody throw at me for free means i must take. especially loose women like Paris. heck even anyone who is decent thrown at me if theres no feel i wont even care twice. sue me if u think im gay. not all guys are like u all. particularly disappointed with those who are attached still. sigh.

Aviary. sing. overnight at my house. sleep on the floor. book in together "why this loose women here who is she u 3 'love triangle' is it ?" "if is your steady i let her come sleep in your room nevermind!" slap u then u know. fucking piece of.. just because i m born to u means u can anyhow call my friend names is it? what and what animals. fuck u understand? and acting so childishly hidiing the remote control when i watching tv "nothing in this house belongs to u ok! go sleep with them la!" u think i want to come home? how amny nights out i get to go out but i choose to stay in camp? cause i got no friends and no love because of u? and i dont even want to go home to see hear or even know u are so near to me! fuck once i get enough money i will buy my own pad and invite all the girls there. and send photos to u everyday to show how lucky im without u. even though none of the girls will ever be loved by me. STEADY will forever be a new meaning for me. cause it doesnt exist.

that day will come. or i will die first. meanwhile.. well i guess.. i ddnt go to MOS. because. no because.

still. nobody appreciates what i had done to help them before. continue picking on the times i didnt help u all ok. just continue. i wont give a flying fuck about what you all say.

maybe i can start carrying balls and sucking up to the superiors. maybe thats how Fatty G became like this with them all. maybe i really have to be a hypocrite. go to hell or live in hell.