- if DESTINY didnt want us to be together forever then why did FATE arrange for us meet each other-

idolise. like. love. are all totally different things. so i said about teresa. and dawn. i could never really love them unless i know them personally. and not everyone that i know personally can be a subject of loving. anyway i dont want to mention anything about this game already. yes its not a choice. people "fall" in love. its an accident.. get it?

wednesday was supposed to be happy. but i kinda realised this trend. that if it had a extremely good start it would have a boring end. or if i had a really bad day i would have a peaceful and nice night in the end. so who determines all this luck? cant i have a totally enjoyable day for once. entirely my choice?
so Arsenal qualified after dumping out Real.. whoomp! so what if i lost money when they didnt win but draw. so what if i had only half an hour more of sleep? i woke up brighter then everyone. stronger then everyone. particularly because also of the conversation the night before. yes with u. all the cutesey voices and all. even during soccer i had then bedazzled with my footwork and even scored a nice out-curling shot. deep inside i knew something was gonna turn around at night. so it came. u called. and i called back too.

“记得 Bugis那个 $1.50的鸡饭吗？"
“你换了睡衣了吗？ hello kitty or winnie the pooh?"
oh..the sweet rush to my head. the sweetest memories that only WE 2 share.
the 2 sentences i wanted to say. i could only say one.
你有想我吗？
i decided i shouldnt say the other. i couldnt even compose myself already.

"你要快乐啊。答应我。你一定要快乐幸福啊."
such a stupid line i said. i think you dont even care.

and i didnt want to put down. i wanted, always wanted this moments to last. so what in the past i couldnt hold a conversation with u for that long. i can now. i can do alot of things now.

Beat it. who says the First Time, 第一次，are the most memorable and lasting memories and ought to be treasured. all lies. our many firsts. *snap* of the finger and all can be forgotten.

during outfield : flick flick flick. buttons came off. i got the fastest "unbuttoning fingers". even ZJ was impressed and ask me to demo for him to feel. i thought he should be more skilled at unbuttoning then me? ( lol ) overheard tim say "ooohh.. so where have you been practising unbuttoning at such speed and with such ease?"
haha. like you want to know tim. many other things i can remove as fast.

isnt it sad when u long for getting out of camp. but shudder to go home and face your reality. i have no escape. why dont i just run into the wall and die. 1 month to go..

should be getting my pay increment le ba..

"do what you can for those less fortunate than yourself." does that mean everyone else is less fortunate than me? geez no wonder i get no help.

"男人都是这样的。" sounds familiar. “我相信你不是啦。。“
so when u say these lines which one do i believe? nvm. i dont have to prove to anyone. let people think im gay and weird. so be it.

tasted love, don wanna different kind. hit a wall, don wanna change my path.

有的人说不清哪里好，但就是谁都替代不了。
that should explain why .

"dunno why you will like me. im no good"

overheard little sister talking to little brother
" winnie pooh ah?"
"不是啦 winnie the pooh la!"
"是不是 winnie and the pooh?"