-writhing in pain. the unbearable-

has anyone seen a pregnant rat before?
has anyone seen a rat give birth before?
has anyone drowned a rat before?

now has anyone seen a pregnant rat which just gave birth to 4 baby rats that are still weak and blind and pink like baked beans being drowned in a cage in a bucket of water with the rat desperately clinging onto the cage mesh for air?

that is so sick. that i pray for the rat. even though its a pest in the other bunk. but it doesnt have to come to this? but i guess thats life.

questions. suspicions. agony. unacceptable. anger. limit-break.
i guess thats how i felt when u didnt want me to see your friends in BB. why am i very shameful to show? all those questions that u never gave me an answer.
i guess too, thats how you felt when i couldnt bring you up to my mother even though she saw so many clues of me having a gf.

perhaps we know how each other feels. how we felt. but not immediately at that time. we both could have done better.

but for me there was fear. i said before. that i couldnt see you again. like my army friend. he doesnt even go out with his gf anymore. even on his birthday last week. yet they are still attached. from what i heard is because of the girl's parents..

if my dreams are really messages from the future, i long for a dream to come true. and for better dreams to come.

UnBeArAbLe.

I CURSE the fellow(s) who went to JE sports complex and stole the four bags. on 11March2006.
get run over by a bus or something. or choke on your food bought with the money u got from stealing and selling the stuff away. Hell's doors are always welcoming you (all) .