-我排着队拿着爱的号码牌-

begun the week so bad i didnt even talk to anyone. dont even dare to on my hp. i didnt cry. all that has dried.

dreams break down 1 by 1 and i have to hope for better dreams to come around.
4 dreams of you in 14 days already what do they mean.
lost you in a sea of toys. will we meet back one day like in the tv serials, in the rain, among the crowd,when we need help and all alone, when we are both single and ready to accept each other again?

u remember the time when we met YS and i talk to him how to save fuel on his car. the way u looked at me and respond when i advise him. u laughed at me didnt u? yes i admit i dont have a car and i dont have licence yet. but why put me down im not boasting i m sharing cause i really tried. why am i always no better then anyone u know.

meiz. up in the heavens. spare me some luck and kindness with your powers can? though we never met but i know you exist. i pray for you. u pray for me too can? i miss you. maybe u will understand what i thinking now. your "sister -in -law" ..

suddenly. the thought of the time u sprang into the toile looking for me when im at your house. yes when u keep knocking and i say i shit and going out soon. u just couldnt wait and open the door while i paiseh. i guess thats a nice memory of how close we were.

ah.. i read about the shuai ge u say in HOME RUN. well apparently he is like me: just speak without caring what others think. and very moody. but not fake at all. just say what he feels. but u know the difference? he more shuai . at least to u. and so i think shuai people get more in life. cause people still adore him. want his number. be his gf kinda stuff. and he is famous. hmm. thats why uglies will never stand a chance. aka ME.

i do remember once. when we were in bed.u were like trying to do something different. while i closed my eyes you kept yours wide open. and i felt weird i open and stare at you. kissing with eyes open. well you got shy first.
or do you recall the time when i pick you up from your school and went to your house and you signal to me to the kitchen table top....

i dunno. all this came flushing in my mind on thursday. when i call you and talk to you in a cute voice all the while. you must have thought i was really drunk? but i cleared my mind. empty. no bad feelings. and these pop up. beer good for brain sometimes? makes you think clearer? but im not addicted. tiger beer still tastes weird.

is a little alcohol good for sex? or is it just suitable to get people into the mood. cause that night i did admit i got the urge to hug. but i just go cold shower and lie in bed to call you.

but i heard about your MOS outing on wednesday. i was worried you changed. about taking photos. saying you were hot. yes you have always been hot. but really need others to take photo with you and treat you drinks for you to know that? when i say you dont believe? but be careful about your drinks. thats what i always say. i dont want to hear anything bad.

turn left turn right. you say you will be at JE. i alight and run but you board my train. kinda like a movie huh. Fate-less. im always so simple minded (dumb?) for you, and you always impatient? well i thought you will know i will alight no matter what you say about leaving..

april 1st. 0137am. i sms you. i call you. then you ask me go toilet. but i understand you cant last. if only i was around to help. cause girls tend to have this problem. but you leaked out something. you said "tml your house got people?" i cant guess what you trying to mean.. tell me?

was glad you said you wont go madam wong's. and i was apologetic cant treat you bubble tea ( yes if i go i treat .. ok..) but you dont want come out later in the night. cause you going HIS house tml. (hmm)

-duno whos the guy who ask you. and u say man utd wil win. so why dont ask him for shoe. cause man utd won.-

arsenal 5-0. oomph..
when will you support me.

i heard people around me grow. experience. mature. i thought i was fortunate when we had each other. now im so ordinary.

but no. i wont pressure anyone. sorry if the start of the week made you crazy. i called didnt i. brain woke up by beer.

(hmm this week saw my GTR R34 zoom past outside camp bus stop! wee hao gan dong. but still if i can i will get 1.. and get my gf/lao po ( if i will have ..) a Mini Cooper S (camp has one! funky blue! but dunno whos the driver) or a S15 Silvia. cause they still more suitable for the ladies. of course i hope my GTR will be good enough to keep us together every where. her car will be her own luxury. hee. lol. daydream again..)

announcement: officially i dont have to stay in camp le. but i not booking out everyday. perhaps this is the ideal arrangement for people with gf. can go out everyday at night. but me? if theres program then i go out ba. or else. just stay in camp and stare at walls. is just too bad i go through this alone.

my bro bday 2 april. happy birthday. dont be like me mei you yong. fight for what you want. you will get it de.

(oh ya. YOU praying to uncle they all at the teple? send my regards. if they still remember what i said to them. thx.)