-its just my duty (that i want to be there for u)-

im only 3080 paces away from Heaven
i know because i counted on my walk home.
thats nearly 4.7km away

but thats also where i hide my tears from u.
cause i dont want u to feel my pain.
as much as i feel that i need to listen to what u have to say from the way u behaved.

did i free ur mind? to think about what u really want? and not what is restricting u?

and i only want to hook ur little finger dont get me wrong. and promise we will be happy and work hard for our own futures.

so i walked every step home. and saw a girl lie face down on a guy lap at a bus stop at JP. and the guy beating her back like a massage. sleeping? i dont know. than saw Bangladeshi workers talking on the stairs. than saw maids (i think) walking opposite my direction. i need so much a person to hear me when i want to be heard, and talk to me when i want to be there. but i dont hear anything from u. maybe u dont see the need to share with me. but accompany u home is not just that. i know my limit.

20/06/2006 20:06 so what if i said to u. nobody was by my side at that moment.

i scrimp and save now. i can onlyhope for a better tomorrow. and i want to leave these misery behind forever and not to worry about finances. and thats when i can ensure urs too.

i dont want to sell u stuff. why dont u believe me? and even a free try-on. no. u must think that i want to ask u buy or join? and still want to ask me go after others? why. why?

以泪洗脸。会更看清楚生命吗？

we are too alike. is that our greatest obstacle?
its hard not to think cause it floats back unknowingly
i dont really want u to hear these.
but maybe when i have a piece of u and u have a piece of me already its just impossible to take away

sorry if u think im mad. but its not everyday i can find time like these. at the playground looking at the sky. with people like u. even though u are happy and content (?) with him now..