-lemme tell yoo-
there was a boy then who was 18
finishing his last paper at a neighbourhood JC
while people file out of the hall he dragged his feet
thinking of what lies ahead after the stupid exam results come out
after all, he was resigned to failing
he went to play soccer at the court, in his uniform
none of the concern he usually reserves for a girl he is pining for
"so what if im late, so what if i stink"
and he left 10 minutes after the supposed meeting time
and still ended up being earlier than her
less than 3 minutes of meeting time
alas..what was she wearing?
not the usual dressing
must be some outing or interview
bye and take care
nothing came out of his mouth
nothing could
even though the brain planned so many things
like lunch
or a movie
fastforward-->>
'i want to concentrate on my studies for now i wont fall for anyone. you jiayou too anything tell me k?'
and the guy respected the decision
down to the very word
working his time away he planned bigger things for the new year
if he worked harder he will earn more from OT
he will have more money for better things
and he will not feel alone if he has the objective to work towards
1 sms received
'i got a new bf ya. dunno will last anot ya. just to let you know'
and he died the day it was read
and re-read
and re-read
he couldnt eat
he bought the char siew rice
but he just stared at it
he started burning
there was no balance
it was just a blank
thoughts racing
'u play well then i let you kiss me k?'
6 strikes in a row
was the time she surprised him at Chevrons training
and the magic disappeared once she left the alley
'power of love man!' his friends echoed
even the coach smiled
and he felt loved
'i never want to lose you. u r my only bf and only husband and only old man'
all the sweet talk
all the moments at the beach
shopping
only time at Palawan alone
after schools
waiting by her campus and being introduced as 'the ex'
kept away from some of the friends
hot moments
cold moments
scary moments
just being there for each other
floated.
no...
flashed
past
even the unhappy times when she didnt meet him as promised
he cherished every moment
he savoured the memory
and he wept in a corner of the warehouse
unseen in the shadows
because he believed he done no wrong
because he believed he did what was best not to pressure her
because he believed he could start planning for their future without worries
'i dont mind if we are poor. dont have to be rich. just enough will do'
but he never stopped believing they could be comfortable
he just believed that he should work hard
when he had to stammer when he didnt know how to talk to girls
when he had to plan what to say before calling her
when he felt so guilty when he couldnt hold a telephone conversation
when he thought it will all be alright cause she saw his heart
when he thought he could have a real reason to live and not just having to escape what he saw at home
when it all falls apart
he wants to know
has she found what she want
really knows what she wants
or is this just all a test
after the completion of his national duty
will it all return to normal
is it just a phase
that he didnt know was planned for him
with the world watching
cause he knows he is good by nature
he has seen all the wrongs he shouldnt become
he has become somebody people can look up to
somebody whom girls agree that he cant even harm anyone
someone whom guys dont even feel threatened to be with
only barring the people who choose to conceal the facts or feel the need to find a flaw
and carrying the responsibility people of his age have never thought of before
plus carrying the torch still flaming strongly
that she will never have another query of his intentions
that all are channeled to helping her to dare
to dream
maybe
even to the extent
when she is happily married and settled
that he will lay the carpet down the aisle
support and advise any dilemma in her life
if only she wants to talk about them
as much as he wants to talk about her
Xmas coming
2years on
the day the sms broke his idealistic future
finishing his last paper at a neighbourhood JC
while people file out of the hall he dragged his feet
thinking of what lies ahead after the stupid exam results come out
after all, he was resigned to failing
he went to play soccer at the court, in his uniform
none of the concern he usually reserves for a girl he is pining for
"so what if im late, so what if i stink"
and he left 10 minutes after the supposed meeting time
and still ended up being earlier than her
less than 3 minutes of meeting time
alas..what was she wearing?
not the usual dressing
must be some outing or interview
bye and take care
nothing came out of his mouth
nothing could
even though the brain planned so many things
like lunch
or a movie
fastforward-->>
'i want to concentrate on my studies for now i wont fall for anyone. you jiayou too anything tell me k?'
and the guy respected the decision
down to the very word
working his time away he planned bigger things for the new year
if he worked harder he will earn more from OT
he will have more money for better things
and he will not feel alone if he has the objective to work towards
1 sms received
'i got a new bf ya. dunno will last anot ya. just to let you know'
and he died the day it was read
and re-read
and re-read
he couldnt eat
he bought the char siew rice
but he just stared at it
he started burning
there was no balance
it was just a blank
thoughts racing
'u play well then i let you kiss me k?'
6 strikes in a row
was the time she surprised him at Chevrons training
and the magic disappeared once she left the alley
'power of love man!' his friends echoed
even the coach smiled
and he felt loved
'i never want to lose you. u r my only bf and only husband and only old man'
all the sweet talk
all the moments at the beach
shopping
only time at Palawan alone
after schools
waiting by her campus and being introduced as 'the ex'
kept away from some of the friends
hot moments
cold moments
scary moments
just being there for each other
floated.
no...
flashed
past
even the unhappy times when she didnt meet him as promised
he cherished every moment
he savoured the memory
and he wept in a corner of the warehouse
unseen in the shadows
because he believed he done no wrong
because he believed he did what was best not to pressure her
because he believed he could start planning for their future without worries
'i dont mind if we are poor. dont have to be rich. just enough will do'
but he never stopped believing they could be comfortable
he just believed that he should work hard
when he had to stammer when he didnt know how to talk to girls
when he had to plan what to say before calling her
when he felt so guilty when he couldnt hold a telephone conversation
when he thought it will all be alright cause she saw his heart
when he thought he could have a real reason to live and not just having to escape what he saw at home
when it all falls apart
he wants to know
has she found what she want
really knows what she wants
or is this just all a test
after the completion of his national duty
will it all return to normal
is it just a phase
that he didnt know was planned for him
with the world watching
cause he knows he is good by nature
he has seen all the wrongs he shouldnt become
he has become somebody people can look up to
somebody whom girls agree that he cant even harm anyone
someone whom guys dont even feel threatened to be with
only barring the people who choose to conceal the facts or feel the need to find a flaw
and carrying the responsibility people of his age have never thought of before
plus carrying the torch still flaming strongly
that she will never have another query of his intentions
that all are channeled to helping her to dare
to dream
maybe
even to the extent
when she is happily married and settled
that he will lay the carpet down the aisle
support and advise any dilemma in her life
if only she wants to talk about them
as much as he wants to talk about her
Xmas coming
2years on
the day the sms broke his idealistic future
posted by -SlackDream*poof*Reality- at
11/25/2006 08:28:00 PM
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